The first thing that happened is God drew me to do a Bible study (Too Busy Not To Pray) with my husband. We started and my heart began to soften, so I would be ready to repent as soon as I found out. A few weeks into our study, my cousin came over to my house and while we were talking, she turned to me and said, "You are so lucky, God has given you everything that you have ever wanted."
My response was "No He didn't." To say the least she was really surprised because I have an amazing husband who adores me, God blessed us with this ministry and we had more than enough every day. However, I realized that I had my life planned out from the time I was 20, and God did not give me a single thing I had planned for myself so I was angry at Him. This is what had created the distance between me and God. My anger kept Him distant from me. It was this realization that completely changed my life. I repented and have never looked back. I realized that what God has blessed me with is so much better than what I had planned out for myself.
God gave me exactly what I needed all I had to do was ask. God is so much more aware of what we need than we are. I am so thankful that He did not just give me what I wanted, instead He gave me His best for me. So going back to today, God gave me the tools I needed to make it through the frustrations that were bombarding me today.
My devotional Scripture for today is Ephesians 4:31 Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice. God wants to strip these things away from us so that all is left is love, kindness, gentleness, encouragement and generosity.