I have had a tough year, I had to live out everything I wrote in my first and only article before this one, this year. The busyness of life is only part of the reason I was not writing, the other reason I was not writing is because I felt like I had very little to offer since I was struggling through the last 6 months myself. I have come to realize that that is when I have the most to offer my readers because we all face difficult times and it is important to know how others face them so we can try to employ some of what they have learned to our present circumstance.
For those of you who follow Walter's writings you will know what has been happening in our lives, however I am going to share with you a few deeper things. When I wrote my first article I was really excited about this year, thinking I knew exactly what would be happening, I was wrong. This is how we know God is in control. We plan out our lives and then everything goes sideways.
I am one of those people who always wants to know why God does what he does and I have been blessed in the past that He has allowed me to know, however when we did not become adoptive parents it really hit me hard. On the way to work in my car, I cried out to God to tell me why. His response was simple, He was not going to tell me why this time, was I still going to trust Him. Believe me that was a very hard question as I was in the depth of sorrow over my loss, yet in my heart I knew there was only one answer for me and that was YES. Would it be easy? Not at all, but I had finally come to a place where I knew that God's plans are perfect, and His plan for that little girl did not include us being her parents.
Unfortunately, this was not the only loss we would walk through in this season. Through every heart break, every loss, God has really given me a joy and a peace that is greater than the amount of sorrow and grief I am going through. I still feel the pain and the grief, the difference is that His peace and joy are greater. Through all of the change and loss we are experiencing this year I believe that God's in control and his plan for us is just starting to unfold.
Our lives are still going through quite a bit of change and transition, so for me this year is not only about choices, but also about change. My life looks much different than it did in January and I am sure that as we still go through the rest of this season it will continue to look different. The future, just like our present is in God's hand and I trust that whatever changes we face as long as we choose to continue to trust him we will be there to comfort us and give us the peace and joy we need to persevere.
Proverbs 3:5-6 has such a deeper meaning to me now with everything we have been going through "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; but in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." God is faithful and His plans for you are perfect the question is are you trusting Him and submitting to those perfect plans. There are many times in my life when I think I have come up with the perfect plan for myself and God has had different plans and I must say His plans have always been for my best.
No matter what circumstance you are facing, keep your eyes focused on God instead of your circumstance. Secondly, trust Him completely and allow His plan for you to unfold. I am not guaranteeing you that there will not be any pain as you go through this, but I can guarantee you that God has a perfect plan for you and you can trust Him fully!
For those of you who follow Walter's writings you will know what has been happening in our lives, however I am going to share with you a few deeper things. When I wrote my first article I was really excited about this year, thinking I knew exactly what would be happening, I was wrong. This is how we know God is in control. We plan out our lives and then everything goes sideways.
I am one of those people who always wants to know why God does what he does and I have been blessed in the past that He has allowed me to know, however when we did not become adoptive parents it really hit me hard. On the way to work in my car, I cried out to God to tell me why. His response was simple, He was not going to tell me why this time, was I still going to trust Him. Believe me that was a very hard question as I was in the depth of sorrow over my loss, yet in my heart I knew there was only one answer for me and that was YES. Would it be easy? Not at all, but I had finally come to a place where I knew that God's plans are perfect, and His plan for that little girl did not include us being her parents.
Unfortunately, this was not the only loss we would walk through in this season. Through every heart break, every loss, God has really given me a joy and a peace that is greater than the amount of sorrow and grief I am going through. I still feel the pain and the grief, the difference is that His peace and joy are greater. Through all of the change and loss we are experiencing this year I believe that God's in control and his plan for us is just starting to unfold.
Our lives are still going through quite a bit of change and transition, so for me this year is not only about choices, but also about change. My life looks much different than it did in January and I am sure that as we still go through the rest of this season it will continue to look different. The future, just like our present is in God's hand and I trust that whatever changes we face as long as we choose to continue to trust him we will be there to comfort us and give us the peace and joy we need to persevere.
Proverbs 3:5-6 has such a deeper meaning to me now with everything we have been going through "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; but in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." God is faithful and His plans for you are perfect the question is are you trusting Him and submitting to those perfect plans. There are many times in my life when I think I have come up with the perfect plan for myself and God has had different plans and I must say His plans have always been for my best.
No matter what circumstance you are facing, keep your eyes focused on God instead of your circumstance. Secondly, trust Him completely and allow His plan for you to unfold. I am not guaranteeing you that there will not be any pain as you go through this, but I can guarantee you that God has a perfect plan for you and you can trust Him fully!