It is hard to live in freedom. There are always people in your life telling you how you should be doing things. Listening to these voices, it may be easy to lose yourself to the expectations of others. People we know and love may not even realize they are putting these expectations on us. They may have ideas of how you should act or what you should say and after awhile you begin to start second guessing yourself. This has happened to me.
God created you just the way you are for a purpose. Every time you try to please another person and change yourself, we are losing a bit more of the freedom, to be who God created you to be. Living in freedom the way that God has called you to is difficult. This means that pleasing God is more important than pleasing people.
We have all tried to please another person, whether it be a teacher, a parent, a coach, a trainer, a boss, a friend. We all want others to like us and we alter ourselves to make those people pleased with us. When I was younger, I had quite the sense of humor, now the only time I seem to crack jokes is when I am around people I know accept me truly for who I am and not who they want me to be.
My encouragement today is this. Be who God created you to be! On the other side of the coin also be the person who accepts people for who they are and journey with them, not trying to change them, but loving them for exactly who they were created to be. You may just be surprised at the hidden gems that people only reveal in the presence of complete acceptance.
I took this weekend off, just to enjoy the news (see my last blog entry) and relax. It was a great weekend! I worked on Saturday but after that it was time to relax and just enjoy life. We went to an arts event, which was awesome. Walter even got to exercise some of his acting ability and had the whole place in stitches. I honestly laughed so hard at one point I almost fell off my chair. I wish I had gotten it on video, I would have totally posted it on YouTube.
Have you ever been new and trying to meet people? I am there right now. I went to a Bible study this morning and I still felt uneasy. There were different people at my table this week than last week and it was hard for me to open up with them. It would have been better to have had the same people from last week, but I believe God is trying to stretch me and teach me and open doors with more of the people in the group. I talk to a few people, but I still feel uneasy and I am not quite sure how I fit yet. Hopefully that will change.
Sundays seem to be our days to fellowship. Last Sunday we went to two services, a barbeque and spent time with my mother-in-law. It was a wonderful day. This week we went to one service, had lunch with the pastor's family, then visited with my mother-in-law. I love these times of fellowship and rest. We are really trying to rest on Sundays and not do any work. This is not always an easy task. It has been really rewarding though, and it makes me feel better about working six days a week.
Today was a day of focus and reflection. I focused on my work and have been reflecting on the last 15 months. It has been an incredible journey for me. I have come from a place of darkness to a place of light. Even in my difficult moments I can still see the light in my life. It is amazing how God can transform you when you are willing to surrender.
Join me on my journey through life's joys and difficulties.