Issue: I find myself in a place where I want to be free of the pain of my past, but I really do not have it in me to forgive some of those who have hurt me. Do I really need to forgive in order to be free?
YES. God has every right to find us all guilty of sin. Instead He made a huge sacrifice and sent His only begotten son to die on the cross for the sins of every other person. God made the ultimate sacrifice for us. We need to come to a place where we are willing to forgive others. This process may take time. Take the time that you need to really come to a place where you can forgive others. In the Bible we are called to forgive people over and over again. In fact when Jesus was asked, His answer was 70 times 7. That is 490 times. In other words just keep forgiving.
I strive to help others by being a safe place for others to ask questions and pose issues they face.