Some of us hide it from everyone else so that we don't have to explain our circumstances. Some of us hide it so that we will not be judged by others. Some of us rely on our closest friends or family to help us through. Some of us reach out for help from counselor's, psychologists, psychiatrists and therapists. Some of us just bury it and hope it goes away. Some of us seek God's help. Some of us try to overcome our dark days on our own.
My darkest days were definitely the time in my life when I felt worthless. I had a low self esteem and everyone around me seemed to prove to me I was right. Even though I was a Christian and I was always taught that God loved me and that he had a plan for me, it was almost like I couldn't believe it fully at that time. I believed God loved me, I just really did not believe I was what he had planned on. I felt like a failure and I felt like a never ending project that was going nowhere. (This was my view, not God's.) I even came to a point where I tried to take my own life. It was at this point that God showed me how much he truly loved me. All three of my attempts failed miserably. Not due to any error of mine, but to the amazing grace of the God I serve. He rescued me that night. I was in my darkest time that night. I will never forget how I felt, I felt so useless that I couldn't even succeed at that. The next morning everything changed, one person in my life showed me that they really cared and it was through that one loving action that I realized how wrong I had been. It shattered that dark hold on me. However I still struggled with my self esteem long after that, but I can honestly say I have never met another day as dark as that.
God was there for me. God is there for you. Do not wait until the day is so dark you cannot find the light no matter how hard you try, find it now. Jesus says in John 12:46 "I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness." He is the light in our dark times. Ever since my darkest day, when I have dark days I come to God and ask him to help me. He always does. Jesus is there for you too, all you have to do is believe. The darkness that presses into our lives is not from God. There is a reason that evil is associated with darkness, it is because darkness comes from Satan. Evil spirits are always at work whispering lies to us. It is up to us to either reject the lies or hold on to them. When your mind is consumed by negative thoughts, then Satan has his foot in the door to your life. He is not like God, he does not wait for an invitation. Instead he sneaks in when no one is watching and he hides out until he has complete control. I have experienced it. God can deliver us! He is the light in the darkness. The question remains, do you want to remain in the darkness or walk into the light? The choice is yours.
My darkest days were definitely the time in my life when I felt worthless. I had a low self esteem and everyone around me seemed to prove to me I was right. Even though I was a Christian and I was always taught that God loved me and that he had a plan for me, it was almost like I couldn't believe it fully at that time. I believed God loved me, I just really did not believe I was what he had planned on. I felt like a failure and I felt like a never ending project that was going nowhere. (This was my view, not God's.) I even came to a point where I tried to take my own life. It was at this point that God showed me how much he truly loved me. All three of my attempts failed miserably. Not due to any error of mine, but to the amazing grace of the God I serve. He rescued me that night. I was in my darkest time that night. I will never forget how I felt, I felt so useless that I couldn't even succeed at that. The next morning everything changed, one person in my life showed me that they really cared and it was through that one loving action that I realized how wrong I had been. It shattered that dark hold on me. However I still struggled with my self esteem long after that, but I can honestly say I have never met another day as dark as that.
God was there for me. God is there for you. Do not wait until the day is so dark you cannot find the light no matter how hard you try, find it now. Jesus says in John 12:46 "I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness." He is the light in our dark times. Ever since my darkest day, when I have dark days I come to God and ask him to help me. He always does. Jesus is there for you too, all you have to do is believe. The darkness that presses into our lives is not from God. There is a reason that evil is associated with darkness, it is because darkness comes from Satan. Evil spirits are always at work whispering lies to us. It is up to us to either reject the lies or hold on to them. When your mind is consumed by negative thoughts, then Satan has his foot in the door to your life. He is not like God, he does not wait for an invitation. Instead he sneaks in when no one is watching and he hides out until he has complete control. I have experienced it. God can deliver us! He is the light in the darkness. The question remains, do you want to remain in the darkness or walk into the light? The choice is yours.
