Issue: I find myself in a place where I want to be free of the pain of my past, but I really do not have it in me to forgive some of those who have hurt me. Do I really need to forgive in order to be free?
YES. God has every right to find us all guilty of sin. Instead He made a huge sacrifice and sent His only begotten son to die on the cross for the sins of every other person. God made the ultimate sacrifice for us. We need to come to a place where we are willing to forgive others. This process may take time. Take the time that you need to really come to a place where you can forgive others. In the Bible we are called to forgive people over and over again. In fact when Jesus was asked, His answer was 70 times 7. That is 490 times. In other words just keep forgiving.
Issue: My mom is disabled and I hated her for it. I even told her that. Since I have grown closer to Jesus I have seen her in a new light and I realize how much I love her. How do I repair the damage I have caused?
Insight: God has forgiven you. My question for you is have you forgiven yourself? You need to forgive yourself, in order to be effective in repairing things with your mom. She needs to know you are coming from a place of love and not guilt. Once you have forgiven yourself and allowed all of the pain to fade away, face your mom. Tell her the truth about how you felt, what changed and how you feel now. Ask her to forgive you and continue to treat her with love and respect and I am sure the damage to your relationship will be healed and restored.
Issue: I have an easy time forgiving others but have a difficult time forgiving myself and moving on from the mistakes I have made.
Insight: It is great that you are able to forgive others so effectively, many struggle with forgiveness more than others. I can relate to your situation, as I have always found it harder to forgive myself than to forgive others. I expect a lot of myself, in fact, I think I expect more of me than God does. The way that I have dealt with this is to try to see myself through God's eyes. He created me, and He sees me as perfect, not because I do nothing wrong but because Jesus has already paid the price for my mistakes.
Issue: My best friend started dating the person I like, when my friend knew I liked this person. I don't want to tell my friend anything anymore and I feel betrayed. I don't think I will ever be able to trust my friend again.
Insight: My question to you is have you told your friend how you feel since this happened? Your best friend may think you stopped liking that person, or your friend might have thought it was alright if that person liked your friend but didn't like you in that way. You need to find out why your friend did it before you can decide if your friend has broken your trust or not.
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